Omg Cali and LA was so much fun!! Im so glad i got to go! OK so on Friday at like 3 15 Laura came and picked me up then we went to the airport to pick up her dad and from there we were off to Cali. It was a really long time in the car to drive there so we got there at like 12ish then checked in and me and Laura went to use the restrooms but on the way we found a ballroom so i decided to open the door but it was pitch dark in there and the door made a funny kinda creepy sound so we both screamed and ran. Then we got our bags and headed up to the room, the room was SO pretty! I was a sweet so her parents got one room and me and Laura got the other, it was such a pretty hotel. There was one huge pool that was littereally the size of three and two hot tubes that were the size of a pool, and we were right on the beach, plus there was a restraunt and a bar too, which then after we took our stuff up to the room we went down stairs to eat but the restraunt was closed so we went to the bar and was kicked out so we went and ate pizza then came bak and went for a walk on the beach at like uh 1ish, then we went bak up to the room and jsut hung out until we got tired and then decided to ggo to sleep. The next morning i woke up about 10 30 cuz her parents woke us up but laura wouldnt get up, she is nto a morning person lol. So i hung out for about an hour but then went bak to sleep and we woke u at like 2 then she took a shower andi  went bak to sleep til 3 then i was gunna take a shower but there was no conditionarso i couldnt cuz i cant brush my hair with no conditionar it jsut doesnt work like that so we went to pay conditionaar then i bought some chips and reeses at the gift shop then uh we went down to the beach and hung out on the beach and in the water a little. It was hilarious, I told Laura to turn around and jump with the wave so she turned around but didnt jump and the wave went right over her head and she fell over, it was SO funny, but then we got out cuz she got water up her nose, haha. Uh then we sat on the beach for a little while then decided to go up to the room, drop off our stuff then go swimming. After we went swimmming we went upstairs and watched "How To Deal" its a cute movie by the way, uh so we watched that then went out to dinner. When we came bak we went in the hot tube and then went bak upstairs and jsut watched TV. We were watching the reeal world and other stuff but thats the show i remember and a comercial came on...it had weird music in the bakround and it was sumthin like...."My insticts are tellnig me to trust u and my horoscope is telling me to trust me..." and then Laura was like, "Chelsea! Im scared!" and she ran over to me. then the commercial was like..."But I still need you to wear a condom" and then we both started laughing, it was so funny...yes laura is scared of condom commercials haha. Then we jsut hung out watched tv and listened to music, nothing exciting then we went to bed. The next morning we woke up at like 8ish, took showers, packed and headed off to LA! We got to LA at like 11ish and Walked around the shops and took pictures and stuff, it was so much fun...And we were walking and if u have ever seen street smarts, the show, then you kno the host on there, frank watever, idk his last name...ya well they were videoing street smarts and he was there and i got a picture with him and everything, he is really nice! Then we got bak in the car and drove to beverally hills and saw Ozzy Ozbornes house, it was kool, we took pictures and he has sensored srinklers so when we stepped on his grass to take pictures we got soaked. O YA!! bb4 we went walking in LA we went to see the Hollywood sign, that was kool too, i got pictures of that too by the way. Uh so after beverally hills we headed home, uh we got home about 11ish and i jsut watched a movie with my parents and fell asleep and then i woke up this morning and i coughed once and couldnt stop coughing, then my face went all red and my eyes too and i couldnt beathe so i called my mom to tell her to come home but she couldnt really understand me cuz i couldnt talk cuz i couldnt breathe but she got it so she called my dfad and he came home then as soon as she got some1 to work for her she cmae home too and so my fdad went bak to work and my mom stayed home with me and we jsut finished our movie andi  slept and nwo im fine. Well im still sick but i can breathe lol. Ya so Cali andLA was so much fun so hopefully me and Laura will go again! Thats all, bye!

Jo is all freaking out cuz she thinks ima ditch her for all the ppl ive been hanging with and im not. every1 knows i love jo, i mean ya ive been hanging with a lot of other ppl and i love them too dont get me wrong but i aint gunna ditch her...well idk wat to say and i gotta pack so i love you all, INCLUDING YOU JO!!

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This week has been crazy! On monday i went to sunsplash with hannah steff taryn sam sydney amanda amy melissa bret george angelo caleb katie keith madison ali megan kaila chelsea and uh i think thats it but maybe not...it was a lot of fun tho, i went on that sidewinder thingy 4 times, i loved it, i went in the front 3 times and in the bak once, the only time i was in the bak hannah was in the front and jo was in the middle and we got stuck right over the edge and i was laughing so hard that i couldnt breathe cuz hannah was the one who was leaning over the edge having to push so that we could get unstuck it was funny cuz the lady was like front girl u have to help and hannah was like no, and then she was like can u pull me bak and the lady was like no sry i cant, and by the time we got unstuck i was laughing so hard that i wasnt ready for it when we went down and it was just hilarious and it was still fun. Oh and we went on the other slides and in the wave pool too, the whole time was a lot of fun, and we all planned to stay till 9 but the place closes at 8 and we didnt kno so we all called r parents, well all meaning me hannah taryn chelsea and amanda, ya so we called and asked our parents if we could stay at steffs and so we all did and sydney was going to but she got in trouble cuz she was supposed to be at steffs by 6 and she wasnt so her mom wouldnt let her spend the ngiht but then the next morning she came to steffs at 7!! and woke us all up, grr we werent very happy. then we chilled at steffs till 12 then headed over to starbucks and i gotta double chocolate frapachino, it was yummy. Then we went to see if bret was home so that we could hang with him and sydney and steff wanted to ask his mom sumthing, but they werent home so we went over to  hannahs house and hung out then we called george to see if him and bret were at the skatepark cuz thats wat angelo said but they werent, i dont remember where george was but bret was at target with his mom then a little bit later bret and beau and colin came over to hannahs and we all hung out and jsut laid around chatin and were on the comp a little too and then we decided we wanted to watch a movie but we only watched the first like 5 min. if even that b4 we got bored and went to go play x box with jeff and neal. Then bret and beau had to leave to go eat dinner so they did then the rest of us jsut hung out and by then it was just me hannah taryn steff colin jeff and neal, o and b4 that i got to hold the lizzard!! thats not very important but ya lol it was fun. and after beau and bret left we had hannahs dad take me hannah taryn steff and amanda, ok so i guess amanda was still there, so we had her dad take us to steffs house to get our stuff and amanda was being picked up there. so amanda left and me hannah steff and taryn started walking bak to hannahs but decided we were too tired ot walk allt he way so we called her dad to come pick us up at the vilage place so he did and then we went bak to hannahs and bret and colin came over and we went swimming then ate pizza. after that all six of us got in the shower in our bathing suits but decided it was too crowded so colin taryn and steff got out and then bret got in and out the whole time throwing soap and shaving cream at me and hannah, it was funny but grr, it got all over my face lol.  then colin steff and taryn got in the shower in there swim suits and bret decided to join them too. Uh then colin and bret left and me hannah steff and taryn jsut hung out, we wre gunna tp but steff fell asleep after we ate then i did and then taryn did and then hannah did so ya, we didnt go, u could prolly figure that one out. uh then we woke up, i woke up first so i got online... then steff woke up and sat with me but no1 was on so i went downstairs and asked hannahs brother to make me a pancake and...he did! lol then i went ba upstairs and chatted on the comp until hannah and taryn woke up then bret and colin came over and we all had pancakes, her brother made them all, none of us could figure out how..haha. then colin and bret went to pecos to meet some ppl but they all ditched them haha it was funny, so they met us at starbucks and we hung out infront of starbucks for wat..like 3 hours, it was fun, surprisingly. Then we went to hannahs to get our swim suits to go swimming at colins but it turned out that we jsut hung out at hannahs and didnt go swimming that day. But it was still lots of fun, we basically jsut hung out, i kno ive said that a lot and it might sound boring but it wasnt lol it was very interesting, all the games we played...the depantsing and flashing, and the "raping" haha bret, but that was after colin left and no we did nto actually rap him haha. uh then colin cmae bak over and uh we hung out again...then me hannah taryn and duh steff went over to steffs and i helped steff and hannah both make blogdrives, that was fun lol. and i wrote in mine. oooooo and b4 like, the first day so like tues, i think, i stole hannahs phone and...i wont say anything cuz ya but haha hilarious yet...bad in a way, but i guess good too, lol ok lets say confusing...ya so we spent the night at steffs then this morning i woke up first, again and went downstairs and got online, then i went bak upstairs to see if they were awake and i opened the door and hannah was on the couch wide awake lok at me lol it was funny and steff and taryn were still asleep so i closed the door and went bak stairs and then a few min later hannah came downstairs and we chattted to ppl and thats when i amde her her blog and then we ate doughnuts lol, it was funny i walked out of the room saying" im thirsty i need water" and then i came bak with jsut doughnuts and hannah was like "*laughs* ur thirsty so u get doughnuts" or sumthin liek that haha it was funny, trust me, u had to be there, uh then steff and taryn came donw stairs and we all jstu hung out then got ready and went to starbucks and i gotta double chocolate chip thingy, for the third time in three days, and then colin called and he was at kohls with angelo and tariq and so they met us at starbucks and tariq had new pants on that he only bought so that he wouldnt havve to wear his gym shorts around and he was planning to return them tomm. haha. ya so then hannah had to leave to go to the otho and then me and steff went to taryns and took showers and we left hannahs bag with the guys cuz her mom was coming bak for it and then colin told hannah that tariq had it and that he lsot it and really colin had it and ugh i got a lil mad lol. but anyways so after we took showers at taryns we had her grandparents take us tot he my house to drop off my stuff then we went to the mall, her grandparents r deaf so we had to use sign language and i thoguht it was kinda kool, weird, but kool lol. so we went to the mall and were planning to meet colin and angelo and tariq there but we called them and they said they were at amc theatres so we jsut went shopping at the mall and then colin called us and was liek u guys still at the mall and we were like ya and he was liek we r here and he was in the store right next to where we were walknig and i was like steff, there he is lol and they said they were there all alnog jsut being assholes and saying they wre at amc then uh we left them and got food then got tatoos and were with them again and tariq said me steff and taryn should all get tatoos that said fag so steff kicked hhim in his balls so he grabbed her boob and so me her and taryn were all chasin after the three guys to the movies so steff could kick his ass but tariq ran inside and colin and angelo were paying and it was 17 fucking dollars for 2 tickets so ya i went inside like in the place b4 u give ur tickets and tariq was sitting so i sat down and was like i aint gunna hit u, steff is, and he was like "ok, good, im gunna lick u" and i was like " if u do il get steff to kick  u harder" and he was liek "nvm im nto cuz ur the nice one" then taryn cmae and sat on the otherside of him and she said she wasnt gunna hurt him either steff was and colin was at the door tryin to keep steff out and then she finally got in and looked at him and was liek "asshole" and she wasl ike "truths" and so they called thruths and ya so angelo was mad about the 17 bucks so they got there money bak and decided to go to amc so me steff and taryn left and the guys went to the movies, i think actually idk if they did cuz i left first and colin was ssaying he didnt want to go anymore so ya idk if they did i havent talked to them since...kk thats ti for that story, cya

hey everybody im at steffs, we r talkin to joness bout john and hit ya kno how it is, john travis, angelo idk hwo to help her cuz i dont really kno wats goin on, shes cofused and confusin me....


I was talkni to park too...kc broke up with him cuz" he was too controlling and called her ot much and didnt let her hang with her friends" he is supposedly in lvoe with her so i guess i feel a little bad but not really cuz of all the shit he siad to me and then he oes and says he was always in love with her, bull. but anyways i dont really care cuz he is a butt...


Now me and steff r just sitting waiting for jo to call us and tell us wat her and john were texting eachother cuz she says theres a lot and ya we want to kno, duh...

Zanders talking to me again...hannah sent him a text from my phone that was like "hiijgj" idk just letters lol and then he text bak hi and she text bak hey to him so  ya i just figured and was kind of hoping that he was speaking to me again and so i text him later and talked to him a little and he IMed me when i got online so ya idk w/e...guess i shouldnt really care...o and i stole hannahs phone and went through her text, from zander of course, o that made me oh so happy to read that he was all...i wont say but ya...asshole...idk im retarded for still even thinking about liking him but hey, ya cant help it right, lol okie  dokie well ima go and steffs gunna make a blog... cya

hmm...Im bored and jos right here, say hi jo, "hi, i needa blow dry my hair" and she leaves. Im talking to hannah and chelsea c. and Im gonig to sunsplash later today!! at like 4 tho, idk y so late but a lot of the schools going and so ya im going when they r with jo and hannah is coming too and so is steff, sydney, amanda, megan ali angelo melissa amy maybe chelsea c. maybe kaitlan katie and uh idk who else but more ppl lol. idk wat else to say and i have to brush my hair so ya...

Hey, I kno i havent written in here in like a really long time but im trying to stay away from aim cuz of ya, zander. but im at jo's right now and she is in the shower so I decided i'd write in here....


I cant decided if things r better or worse without zander. If you dont kno wat im talknig about then...ok we were in love ya blah blah every1 knows that but now he is telling ppl that he never liked me and shit, ok not ppl just hannah but still it pissed me off and he told laura that he didnt talk to me anymore but i dont really care about that. But now that we dont talk anymore, cuz he wont speak to me cuz i asked wat was up with him denying ever liking me and he hasnt spokin to me since, but anyways so now that we dont talk anymore im finding out things that i didnt kno, like he told laura he loved her atleast twice and shit like that and idk just stuff like that, actually i guess thats it but still...And i think its really weird that all of a sudden he can jsut stop talking to me when he said stuff like he couldnt live without me and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and shit, but hey i guess thats how life goes, right?

Im not quite sure what im gunna say at the moment but i kno i need to write...

Aww!! I hate my fucknig computer!!

I already wrote in here once but i didnt save it so im writing again!

Ok well ya...Im jsut gunna get to the point this time...Everything with z has jsut been like really fucked up and everything and he didnt kno if he loved me anymore and stuff but last night he told me that he loved me and i was really happy and i still am but i was tihnking about it and idk things arent like they used to be...i cant talk to him about like anything cuz im scared he wont love me anymore and he used to say he wouldalways lvoe me and stuff and ya.. i believed him..i guess i shouldnt have but o well, im stupid so ya, sucks for me. Im not mad at him at all for lying like that cuz i guess if i wouldnt have complained so much about jasmine this whole thing never would have happened but hey.. u have the guy ur in love with hang with another girl all the time and never even say hi to u..I miss him tho... I miss how we used to be, everything was perfect, i had like the perfect life and i totally fucked it up..wat an idiot.

Im in a really good mood right now cuz ya even tho zander might not love me anymore, he doesnt kno, atleast he is talknig to me!!!!!!!! i didnt think he was ever going to talk to me again!!!!! and he did!! while i was in the shower lol and then i got out of the shower and i had a text and of course i was hoping it was from him but i didnt think it was cuz earlier i got off the phone with steff czu i got a text and thoguht it was him and it wasnt but it was tihs time!!!!!! and ya, it was a good conversation, not good like good but good like a conversatino that needed to be had lol get it?!? ok well ya grr i dont even kno wat to say im jsut so happy and cant stop typing o and tariq ya guess wat, i hate him, lol i told sam i did cuz ya, i do, wat he did to matt and now angelo, ugh asshole and me ya, im not saying wat he did but jo, u kno and jess and steff and ya idk who else knows but ya, ugh i jsut hate him and omg, angelo is so sweet, he is all like sensitive and stuff and i didnt kno that he was! hes popular and ud think he wouldnt be but he is!! and omg how could she do that to him in the first place??! ugh id jsut die if i was in that position, i would never ever do that! duh nto to zander but nto even to angelo!!! and i barely even kno angelo like at all!! and u still wouldnt do that!! ok well i wanna stay ina happy mood so ima stop talking about that! o but, my laura is sad and im sad for her but im happy too, ive been all like sad and shit for like a week and im nto now!! hehe ya and jo is like so nice!! hehe and steff too!! me and steff like r never bitchy to each other anymore so i guess all that fighting paid off, right steff? lol u kno im right. so ya me and steff r doin good and me and jo too, idk how jo is doing on her own but i think she is finally doing better too, i think she finally knows wat she wants, and thats good, and jo if u dont kno wat u want, dont worry about ti, u will sooner or later. omg do u ever feel so tired that like ur heads gunna like fall off? lol ya that sounded weird but its true, im sooooooooo tired and ill be able to sleep tonight!! and i have a field trip tomm., ya im not very excited about that, i dnot wanna go but i dont wanna write a paper so im going. blah, yucky but anyways bak to me being tired, im really tired and havent stopped typing for like 5 min lol but im waiting for jo to come bak cuz she is away cuz her parents just got home from the concert. omg they r so lucky. it was the 3 doors down concert and they got to have dinner with them!!!!! grr nto fair!!!! whoops i stopped typing fro a sec. to check my phone to se if it was blinking, but it wasnt, i think z fell asleep lol thats ok tho, i wish i was asleep too, ya, with him, hmm, lol anyways, jo's talknig to her parents to see how it was and then coming bak and then im leaving lol cuz im really tired and ugh i dont think im supposed to be on and i have to get up at 6 30 to straighten my hair cuz i love it straight lol well anyways.. i think thats all for now...ima go tell jo to come bak, cya